Chapter 87
Ji Xi took Qiao Zhiyu’s hand and touched her scar. Qiao Zhiyu was curious last time, but she didn’t say anything. She now wants to tell her what Qiao Zhiyu is curious about.
When I was young, fights, burns.
One by one fits.
Qiao Zhiyu’s eyes fixed on the old wound on Ji Xi’s shoulder.
“Actually, grandma, she is not my own grandmother. I was adopted by them from the orphanage.” Ji Xi lowered her head and adjusted the collar of her shirt, and tried to say to Qiao Zhiyu in a relaxed tone, “Do you remember the first time we met,” Am I talking to you? Because of the mole on your nose, it looks like a sister I met in the orphanage.”
Ji Xi smiled meaninglessly at Qiao Zhi’s reason, seeming to be talking about a trivial matter.
It used to be so contradictory to mention these, it is for anyone, but now she is willing to tell Qiao Zhiyu that it is intuition, Qiao Zhiyu will respect and understand all her feelings.
Qiao Zhiyu stared at Ji Xi, his heart was surging, and he was unable to speak. The memories of many years ago and the moments were intertwined in his mind, a little confused.
Ji Xi saw Qiao Zhiyu staring at her in a daze, thinking she was distressed, and then smiled: “It’s nothing, it’s all over…”
“You were scalded because of her fighting with others.” Qiao Zhiyu cut off Ji Xi’s words, his eyes lingered on her face, and continued: “She is a few years older than you, and you don’t like to talk. Just talk to her.”
Qiao Zhiyu said the most private matter accurately. Ji Xi was dumb for a moment, she looked at Qiao Zhiyu, and then she realized something.
The air fell silent abruptly.
When he first saw the scar on Ji Xi’s shoulder, Qiao Zhiyu was suspicious, because she remembered Ji Xi mentioned volunteering in an orphanage.
and also-
Ji Xi said she seemed to have known each other before.
Ji Xi is just five years younger than her.
Ji Xi said that he was autistic when he was a child.
…
All of them can be clearly matched.
It’s just that Qiao Zhiyu never thought that the world is so small sometimes. Her voice trembled slightly, “…Do you remember me?”
In a word, let everything be clear.
Ji Xi became at a loss for breathing. She stared at Qiao Zhiyu closely. When all the people and things came up, somehow, tears welled up from the corner of her eyes and silently slipped down her cheeks. She didn’t even think about crying, the tears had already come down.
Thinking of what happened many years ago, Qiao Zhiyu’s eyes were also moist despite the age.
Startled for a long time.
Ji Xi sniffed, “I think I have seen you…”
Qiao Zhiyu stretched out his hand to touch Ji Xi’s cheek, wiped away the tears for her, and then said for a while: “I didn’t recognize it, the change is too big…”
Ji Xi made Qiao Zhiyu wipe her face, still looking at her intently, stupid.
Over the years, the memories are far away, and they have changed too much. At that time, the girls in the yard wore short hair uniformly, like boys.
If it wasn’t for Qiao Zhi’s mole over the tip of his nose, if it wasn’t for the scar on Ji Xi’s shoulder, they would not recognize each other’s face. But some memories are still clear, they are one of the few beautiful things in their depressed time.
“It’s really you…” Qiao Zhiyu couldn’t believe it. Her memory was clearer than Ji Xi, after all, she was a few years older.
Ji Xi also lost her mind, “It’s like dreaming.”
Qiao Zhiyu wiped Ji Xi’s wet eyes with his fingertips, his thoughts were so confused, he didn’t know what to say.
The two of them kept looking at each other. After a long time, they couldn’t help but feel like a dream. Slowly, the people in front of me and those in my memory were completely equalized.
“Remember what I called you before?” Qiao Zhiyu asked.
Ji Xi nodded. Even though many things were vague, she remembered the only thing about Qiao Zhiyu, “Others call me dumb, only you don’t.”
Children with less reserved words are more likely to be bullied. Ji Xi was like this when she was a child. She was always chased and scolded by other children. The more others scolded like this, the less she wanted to talk.
It was so young at that time, Qiao Zhiyu recalled, tried, and yelled softly, “Little guy…”
Suddenly, Ji Xi’s tears fell uncontrollably. Watching Ji Xi cry like this, Qiao Zhiyu’s tears also drew his eyes. She stepped forward, holding Ji Xi’s face, and kept wiping her tears.
With eyes stained red, Ji Xi also stretched out her hand, carefully wiping the tears from the corners of Qiao Zhiyu’s eyes.
I can’t calm down for a long time.
“I think you look like,” Ji Xi looked at the tip of Qiao Zhiyu’s nose, and then at her eyes, “I think it’s impossible again.”
Qiao Zhiyu’s background is like two worlds with her. How could Ji Xi think that they would have the same background, and Qiao Zhiyu was her sister back then.
It is indeed rare for children in orphanages to be adopted by favourable families. Qiao Zhiyu’s adoptive mother used to be the sponsor of the orphanage. Qiao’s mother was kind-hearted and likes children, so she adopted her.
Compared with other children, Qiao Zhiyu considers herself lucky, at least not struggling materially. In the past two decades, Qiao’s business has been booming, and her status has changed and she has become the envy of countless people, but rarely Someone knows the inside story.
The night is like water, the breeze is warm, everything is just right.
“…How are you doing?” Ji Xi turned to look at Qiao Zhiyu, and thought, she must be not as bad as her own.
From leaving the orphanage to coming to the north with his adoptive parents, Qiao Zhiyu told Ji Xi about many things during the period.
Ji Xi was very happy to hear that Qiao Zhiyu had lived better than herself over the years and did not endure as much as she did.
“…After my mother left, my dad later married another term, and the family was always in trouble.” Qiao Zhiyu smiled bitterly, “They can’t accept me over there, I simply went abroad, and I still don’t go back very much. .”
So there is no one to take care of him even in the hospital, Ji Xi understands this kind of unacceptable taste, only after experiencing it. In any case, there is always a sense of isolation that will haunt you like a shadow, and you will feel different, even redundant.
Seeing Qiao Zhiyu’s expression distressed, Ji Xi stepped forward to hug her and hugged her, “You have me. I will be with you.”
“Yes, I have you now.” Qiao Zhiyu smiled and embraced Ji Xi with an unprecedented sense of steadiness.
Ji Xi caressed Qiao Zhiyu’s shoulders and felt the warmth of Qiao Zhiyu. He was so happy that he could be needed by someone he liked.
“How about you?” Qiao Zhiyu asked Ji Xi this sentence, feeling a little uncomfortable. She knew that Ji Xi had a bad life, and she knew that Ji Xi had struggled alone and had suffered a lot before she managed to achieve her present life. .
“I have always lived with my grandmother. My adoptive parents don’t care about me. My grandmother and sister are very good to me…” Ji Xi leaned in Qiao Zhiyu’s arms and said a lot of boredom. Just like when she was a child, she refused to say many things to anyone. , Only willing to say to Qiao Zhiyu.
After holding it for a long time, my heart calmed down bit by bit.
It was late at night, and the hands of the clock on the wall were quietly drawing circles. Go round and round.
Ji Xi and Qiao Zhiyu were lying on the bed, under the warm night light, looking at each other’s faces in silence. The new identities that suddenly appeared, still needed some time to adapt to digestion.
“Why are you staring at me stupidly?” Qiao Zhiyu asked, why isn’t she staring at Ji Xi.
Ji Xi murmured, “It still feels like a dream.”
“I also think,” Qiao Zhiyu chuckled her lips. The past was intertwined with reality. She lifted the hair covering Ji Xi’s side face and sighed, “You were like a little monkey back then.”
Ji Xi couldn’t help but smirk, “Are you saying I was ugly when I was a kid?”
“No, cute.” Qiao Zhiyu’s face was close to Ji Xi, “just as cute as now.”
Ji Xi still laughed.
Qiao Zhiyu pulled off Ji Xi’s collar and saw the fire-like pattern on her shoulders, caressing him, feeling terribly distressed. If it wasn’t for herself, she wouldn’t have left such a big scar.
Ji Xi knew what Qiao Zhiyu was thinking, she said lightly, “It’s the dean’s child, he said you stole something, obviously he stole it, so I can’t get angry with him.”
This is one of the few things that Ji Xi remembers deeply before he was six years old, because the boiled water scalded it and scalded the skin and flesh, which was too painful.
“You are not stupid, you scared me at the time.”
Now it’s funny thinking about what happened in childhood, Ji Xi said, “I just want to hit him.”
When Ji Xi said this, Qiao Zhiyu’s nose was even more sore. A little guy who was always muffled and who was chased and scolded and couldn’t speak back, but would fight for himself.
Qiao Zhiyu lowered his head, kissed Ji Xi on the scar next to his collarbone, and then silently hugged Ji Xi tightly. Really, I don’t want her to suffer any more grievances and suffering in the future.
There are too many complicated emotions in this hug. The person I like, and she warmed each other many years ago. I didn’t believe in what was destined before, but now I seem to have to believe it.
In the middle of the night, the two were hugged together, still not sleepy. There is not a single sentence, talk about the past, talk about the present.
“Do you remember that time when you brought Xiaoqing to class with me, and someone found it, would I let you go back?” Ji Xi took the initiative to mention this matter to Qiao Zhiyu.
“Remember.” Qiao Zhiyu was deeply impressed. Ji Xi took the initiative to hug her that day, and she felt Ji Xi’s emotional breakdown.
“They are not relatives, they are my biological parents. They kneeled to me that day and asked me to forgive them. I couldn’t forgive them, so I let them kneel for a long time…” Ji Xi said, she whispered to Qiao Zhiyu: “Am I cold-blooded, am I doing this wrong? They all say I am cold-blooded.”
Even the dearest grandma had beaten her side by side, do you want to recognize her parents.
When Ji Xi said these words, tears came out. She is not born to be bored with everything, but she can’t find anyone to talk to, and she is not indifferent to many things, but just wants to protect herself with indifference.
“No. You have the right to choose, as long as you decide the choice is right, other people are not qualified to say you, know? No matter what, I will support you and stay with you by your side.” Qiao Zhiyu comforted Ji Xi’s hair, tell her. Finally understood Ji Xi’s collapse that day. Seeing Ji Xi like this, she wished she could help Ji Xi bear the pain.
“Yeah—” Ji Xi hugged Qiao Zhiyu tightly little by little. At this moment, he felt that the weight of his heart was lifted off and became relaxed.
“Since high school, I have been relying on myself. I have never dared to trust others, let alone rely on others, because I will feel insecure.” Ji Xi muttered again.
“I understand.” Everyone has a life of being abandoned, and no one understands Ji Xi’s sensitivity better than Qiao Zhiyu.
Ji Xi was silent for a few seconds and told Qiao Zhiyu his truest feelings, “When I know that I like you, I am very afraid… I am afraid that you will leave me in the future and don’t want me.”
Qiao Zhiyu: “Fool, don’t think about it.”
Ji Xi put out her hand and carefully touched Qiao Zhiyu’s face, from the eyebrows to the bridge of the nose to the lips, looking carefully, she finally no longer felt that Qiao Zhiyu was far away from her. She slid her face into Qiao Zhiyu’s neck, took a deep breath, and rubbed against each other with nostalgia.
“I’m different from them,” Qiao Zhiyu said softly and firmly, sticking to Ji Xi’s ear, “I can accompany you for the rest of my life.”
She circumscribes Ji Xi tightly, giving Ji Xi a sense of security while also giving herself a sense of security.
“Yeah.” Ji Xi closed her eyes and hummed, and the two of them hugged tightly together without any barriers.
The neck was wet, Qiao Zhiyu looked at Ji Xi’s face, and as expected, the ends of his eyes were red, and he wiped it: “Why are you crying again?”
Ji Xi didn’t know, she just wanted to cry tonight, she was very happy, she just didn’t listen to her own tears. She no longer restrained, feeling that in front of Qiao Zhiyu, she could do anything.
Qiao Zhiyu lowered his eyes, leaned directly over his lips, and kissed Ji Xi’s forehead, eyebrows, eyes, bridge of nose, cheek, and then all the way to the corner of his mouth. Every kiss was tender to the bones, coaxing her with his lips.
Ji Xi was made to laugh, tears in her laughter.
Qiao Zhiyu smiled, and kissed Ji Xi’s small nose with the tip of his nose, “I love you.”
Last time Ji Xi was drunk, she said it, but she wanted to say it again, for fear that someone might not remember it.