Chapter 789 Does it hurt?
“The chapter “Remains of Pain” has been emphasizing the phrase’the reality of being alive’. Sousou’s novels use two special people, two rituals and Asakami Fujino, to think deeply about this meaning. To reflect the ordinary with the special, then we What is the real feeling of being alive? It is’pain’ for patients with no pain. In “Remaining Pain”, Fujino Asakami, the protagonist, is such a patient with no pain.”
“When I first watched it, I always had a very puzzling question. Why can Asakami Fujino tolerate such abuse by those people? Even if it is’painless’, even if she is weak, she should not be like There was no resistance in this way, and even the emotional resistance was not shown. However, afterwards, her inner monologue answered the doubts in my heart and at the same time deeply shocked me…”
I obviously can’t feel the pain, but why can I feel the hurt in my heart.
After all, what is the heart? Is the heart hurt or my brain?
The language with the meaning of attacking Fujino Asakami was accepted by the brain, and was hurt by the attack. It hurts because of injury. Rebuttals, defenses or scolding, are nothing but medicine made by the brain to ease the injury.
So even if I don’t know the pain, I can feel the pain caused by the hurt in my heart.
But this is an illusion.
It must be an illusion.
Real pain is definitely not something that can be calmed by words.
The hurt in the heart can be quickly forgotten. So the hurt in my heart is trivial.
But as long as the injury is still there, it will continue to hurt.
What a strong, definite proof of survival.
If the heart is the brain, it will hurt my brain.
Then I can get the pain.
As I have been every day.
Being the same age. Even young teenagers have memories of abuse. Words that can hurt me.
…I remembered.
Their laughter. There are also terrible expressions.
Those who are constantly threatened, persecuted, and humiliated belong to my time.
When the man pressing on me swung the knife. My abdomen became hot, the clothes on my abdomen were torn apart and wetted with blood.
Thinking of the time I was stabbed, I was full of aggressiveness.
After dealing with them, I really felt that the warmth was just the pain.
Once again, the heart squeezed.
Unforgivable. This voice kept repeating in my heart until it broke apart.
“…Woo.”
The knee bends down.
Is that one again?
The abdomen heats up. The unpleasant sensation in my internal organs was pinched by an invisible hand.
Feeling nauseous… I have never felt this way before.
Dizziness… It has always been a sudden when you lose consciousness.
Wrist numbness… has always been confirmed by eyes.
Very painful.
…Ah, I’m still alive.
The stabbed wound started to hurt.
A wound that should be cured, only the pain will suddenly recur like this.
In the distant past, my mother told me that once the injury was cured, there would be no more pain. But that is lying. My wound was stabbed by a knife. After healed, there was still pain.
…But my mother, I like this kind of pain. Because for me who don’t feel alive. Other than that, there is nothing that can let me know the fact of being alive.
Because there is only this residual pain, it is definitely not an illusion.
“Fujino made it very clear that for her suffering from painlessness, pain is the real feeling of being alive. She would rather feel pain when she is abused. What is painlessness? This is an inherited sense of self-discipline. Neurological disorders, of course, Fujino Asakami is not hereditary. However, the results obtained are the same. There are two types of sensations. The superficial sensations that can be experienced such as touch, pain, and temperature. Deep sensations such as actions and positional feelings are reported to oneself. Generally speaking, in the case of feeling paralyzed, these two occur at the same time.”
“Some people think that the body exists even if there is no feeling. Because the body is moving, they think that they are no different from us except for not feeling. But this is wrong. The so-called no feeling is that nothing can be obtained. Even if I touch it, I don’t have the feeling of touching it. I can only confirm that I’ve touched this reality through visuals. It’s like reading a book. What’s the difference with those fictional stories.”
“Even if you are walking, your body is only moving. You can’t feel the reaction of the ground, but you can only recognize that your feet are moving. No, even this knowledge is only a thin knowledge that can be believed only after visual confirmation. Right.”
“No feeling. That means the absence of a body. Wouldn’t it be the same as ghosts. For them, all reality is nothing but visual recognition. Even if it is touched, there is no difference between being unable to touch it! ”
“In this way, this is really a helpless disease. She clearly has sex, but she has no real feeling like a ghost. Just imagine this feeling, and she can’t help but feel pity for Fujino. She is already so unfortunate. , I was treated like that. So that I feel the same as Hei Tong, and I don’t feel much about the people who were killed by her.”
“Looking back at the beginning of “Remains of Pain”, it was raining on the street, Fujino squatted on the corner of the street, clutching his stomach. Kurito saw her running over and asked:’Does the stomach hurt?’ She almost subconsciously replied,’No… …’ Then he turned his head over. He asked again:’Is the stomach still hurting?'”
“She replied subconsciously:’No…’ Then she said slowly,’Well, it’s very, very painful.’ Then she asked in a low voice almost tentatively:’I’m so painful that I can cry. Can you cry?’. After receiving the affirmative answer, she received a pardon, and then lowered her head, almost crying with joy.”
“It’s like the kind of curious and excited mood that a child has just come into contact with a new thing. She trembles with excitement for this new feeling, but at the same time she is at a loss because of the strangeness of this feeling. Through the common sense of life for more than ten years, She felt that she should cry at this time. So she asked, tremblingly:’Can I cry?'”
“I wonder how long Asakami Fujino has not cried at all before this?”
“Because I don’t feel the pain physically, and because I want to conceal the fact that I don’t feel the pain, I always remain silent in the face of injury; over time, her concept of injury is a bit vague, and she doesn’t know when she can Cry, I don’t know who I can cry safely to.”
“So when facing injury in the heart, Fujino Asakami’s reaction was to be at a loss. She was injured in her heart, but she didn’t care about it and didn’t know how to deal with it. Orange said in “Remaining Pain”, “Although Is it a wound that is healed but still painful?’ It implies some invisible pain on the surface. In reality, it may be a variety of mental injuries.”
“Just at this moment, she was hit with a sap on the back, and the pain recovered. At the same time, she also recovered her super power to twist things with the magic eye. She was addicted to pain almost immediately, crazily. When she was in pain, she felt like a normal person. She could say to people:’It hurts, I hurt.’ She almost coquettishly talked to people and said to the world, I can When I feel the pain, I am a normal person. In fact, I am waiting for her to say that the pain will follow in her consciousness, some care from others.”
“I sympathize with the young girl named Fujino Asakami. She was constantly excluded and bullied by the outside world when she was born as an’unsuitable person’. She finally regained her painful feeling and was forced to become a’murderer’. She is facing death. It’s only at a moment when I feel my true heart strongly.”
“…I want to live, say more, think, want to stay here. The true face of what I feel happy about. This fact hurts her more than anything else. The meaning of the sin I committed and the blood I shed is now finally understood. The meaning is too deep to even apologize.”
“In fact, she really just wanted to say that sentence. So far, she has been concealed by her stubbornness. The true mind… the dream that she has when she is young is a wish that is extremely small in the eyes of others.”
pain.
It hurts, it hurts really, I, I’m so painful that I’m about to cry…Can I cry?
Fool, if it hurts, just say it.
“The story of this article is not long, but I watched it for a long time. It was interrupted several times, not because the content could not attract me to read it all in one breath, but because the inner emotions were mobilized to the limit several times, and I couldn’t stand it anymore. Bear the heart to read it again.”
“Just like Teacher Huang Shaotian said, even though these are just the more common parts of the novel’s subject matter , the Great Devil uses his own hands to compose a pain that is deeply rooted in flesh and blood. It oppresses the hearts of viewers and readers.”
“After the physical injury is cured, there will be no more pain, but the heart injury cannot be cured, so this pain will remain.”
“I did experience this kind of personal grief.”
Although only the protagonist in “Remains of Pain”, Fujino Asakami’s character creation is very successful. Especially under He Chen’s in-depth training, Mamiko has grown like a reborn, the monologue in Asakami Fujino’s heart, like the echo in the valley, deeply infects every audience heard by the person, making her charm more Go up one floor.
In “Remains of Pain”, although she is a “villain”, she is a villain who makes the audience sympathize and accept.
Seeing the hands of the two rituals rising and falling, I don’t know how many people sighed with regret.
When they heard that the two rituals did not kill Asakami Fujino, but saved her, some people were relieved. (To be continued…)
ps: I wish you all a happy Dragon Boat Festival!